The Flight

Here is my life...
Even after what you’ve done
I want you to know I'll be alright
Rest assure, I wouldn’t bother you anymore
The pain you caused me
I’ve learn not to get near you once more

You’re the kind of man
Who can make the girls weak at the knees
I’m one of those girls
Hoping you’ll see the real me
But you fail miserably at that
Behind your gentle veneer
Lies a cruel heart

I know we’ll never speak again
You placed more distance between us
And the hurt you inflicted is beyond repair
I’ll never go back to what might have been
The pain weighs heavier now
Than the love I used to f
eel

I have mended
And so it ended
Free from you
To love myself more
So rest assure, I won’t be at your beck and call

Movie Quote: American Psycho

There are no more barriers to cross

All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane,

the vicious and the evil

all the mayhem I have caused

and my utter indifference toward it,

I have now surpassed.

My pain is constant and sharp…

            And I do not hope for a better world for anyone.

In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others.

I want no one to escape.

But even after admitting this,

            there is no catharsis

My punishment continues to elude me…

            And I gain no deeper knowledge of myself.

No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling.

This confession has meant…

            nothing.

From the novel by Bret Easton Ellis and the movie "American Psycho"

TOP TEN THINGS I ENJOY THE MOST OUTSIDE OF MY USUAL PURSUIT

1. Long Travel 
2. Riding in the train and bus
3. Coming home late and staying up all night until dawn
4. Walking (except when I'm headed to work)
5. Great concern for the environment, compassion for animals, and interest for social causes.
6. Hopping around at the many erected buildings found in the bustling cities of Makati and Alabang, and exploring the historical edifices inside and outside of Manila.
7. Rain showers or rainy season (except for the frogs and enclosed jeeps that suffocates me to death)
8. Hang out at the park where I have tos it at the rich grasses, without a care in the world.
9. Dipping myself in the pool, falls or the beach. As long as the water and temperature is cold.
10. Learning and admiring beautiful and famous people and finding inspiration from them.

Kismet

Have you ever been a witness to God's divine intervention? I could say "yes" with an exclamation point. I have a friend who married her first love. Her name is Pam. She and her boyfriend (now husband) Jay-R were separated for a very long time, but somehow, fate manages to bring them back together for the second time. That's what I called true "destiny." They must have done something good to deserve such good karma. Sabi nga, love knows no time and boundaries. Kaya kahit you've been apart for too long you're love for each other withstands the past and bridge it to your present.

What amazes me is that I was able to see the purpose behind God's will through their love story. Distance enabled them to grow as mature individuals, and discovered what they strongly needed in their lives. They were separated by God to be prepared for the right time their love has reach its full bloom. Past relationships made them better and keener to the challenges that life has to offer. And it also allowed them to see the importance of one another. Knowledge to distinguish that he/she is finally the right "one."

Most recently, God bestowed Pam & Jay-R another blessing by the birth of their daughter Astrid - the fruit of their love.

I hope the same luck and happiness for everyone searching and hoping for true love. It is rare nowadays, but amidst of the turbulent changes and chaos happening all over the world I'm sure there is a silver lining at the end of the road for every one. Kumbaga nga, "love moves in mysterious ways," so just hold and be patient.

...and yet another dyornal entry for May 04, 2007

My first day as a French lingo student started officialy last evening around 2300.

"Le cours debutante," or the beginner's level is my current status. Honestly, it is pointless to measure my proficiency at the moment for I have no clue about the language, except for the greetings bonjour, and je vais bien. It went well, but completely frustrating.

The first lesson I studied was the "pouvoir et vouloir." The site has a corresponding audio book, too. While I read the page a guide teaches me about the correct pronunciation. It's neat, but I needed something more elementary.

Learning a foreign language is quite difficult. You will need plenty of patience here and I'm trying to teach myself that I have to focus on this if I really wanted to speak fluent Francais.

I also began to learn their alphabet and its proper pronunciation. Come after are the hellos, and greetings, introductions, goodbye's, and courtesy. Since, I'm a newcomer my goal is to swallow and digest hard what I have learn before moving to another level. You know, slowly but kind of surely. I used to take things as fast as I could. No doubt, I don't have long lasting success in them.